"It's really tough to pretend not to love someone when you still do."
Slept around 3am + after hanging up xiaopang's call. Was chitchatting with him on phone. Woke up @ 10am + went to prepare etc then train to paya lebar , took cab to lynn's house. Reached her house, h2h talk & etc. Some incident happen , left her hse straight after she shower. Bus to kpool, played few rounds of pool. Then look @ lynn use computer etc. Recieve wenjun's text & hurried cab to tamp his hse to meet him. Slack2 @ his hse as usual. Some cockup things happen again, like always sia recently. Around 9pm + , drop lynn @ tamp inter then cab home. Hsh. & ohya, yesterday hsh whole day after reporting ^^v.
Wow, 49 days of luv, or should i say suffering ? Hiakhiak. I finally gave up loving him because no point having him but not his heart. Since he have already have someone he really wants then i shall srsly just let it go uh + all those harsh words he said to was really horrible. But nevermind, since im gona let it go. Cannot be lover, be friends. Cannot be friends, be enermie hor? :):) Plus , all those sweet stuff he once mentioned to me was all craps, he finally told me the true. Oh dear, im so navie :( Hahahaha ! Wtf, fuck myself. But still i'll never forget those awesome times spent with him althought it's nonsense+craps to him because those time really was superduper awesome! (5th,7th,10th,22th) How i wish time could just rewind & pause @ those times, but hahahaha it's never gona happen. So yeah, hearts dead but i still gona let my heart guide him silently. Praying for him to be happy & also be safe. :) All the best sweet, goodluck to you & her. Argh, srsly hate myself when i say things that i don't wana say. -_- You happy = I happy ! So why not, just let it go. HAHAAHAHA, Omfg i just feel like dying. Why didn't i just listern to Luv's advice from the starting :(:( Whatever lah, Fuck love.
If i say i don't and wont love you anymore, im just lying.
This song really express what im feeling.
@11.00pm
@11.00pm
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